Guess it’s time to blog.
I don’t know where to begin. Maybe making a list will be easier.
1. Okay, I’m obsessed with Supernatural at the moment, as you can probably tell from all the name-changing on Facebook and uploading of Jared&Jensen clips here. Can’t friggin wait for Season 4’s DVD. It’s going to last only 5 seasons, which is a waste, because Eric Kripke is a genius and should keep writing some more. And because of Supernatural (best TV show on earth to date), I’ve recently been listening to something I don’t really listen to normally: classic rock. Ie, Metallica, Black Sabbath, Deep Purple, AC/DC, Kansas (head over to my playlist and check out the bottom of the list for the newest additions). I’ve got Eye of the Tiger and Carry on, My Wayward Son and Dead or Alive stuck in my head in auto-replay! So loving it.
2. Am at home working on my story now, Bedful of Moonlight. And I am friggin stuck. I don’t know if it’s a writer’s block or just plain old cluelessness as to how the story should progress, but this sucks. I don’t wish to abort this project. Maybe that’s why I feeling kinda blah lately.
3. Another reason why I’m not so chipper at the moment is because I’ve queried probably close to EIGHTY effin literary agents so far, and none of them are interested. Jerm and Ger tell me it’s cause of the recession and financial downturn (that’s an understatement) that no agency is willing to pick up new writers. I guess. Still, it’s so demoralising. I’ve queried this local publisher, Lance Ng, from Renaissance Publishing, but he hasn’t replied. I just hope I’ll get a positive response soon, or I’m just going to go nuts. I mean, 80 rejections slips. That’s really sad. It’s why I’ve been looking for competitions to enter so I can build up my resume. But overseas competitions need credit card payment of entry fees, and I don’t have one. And Singapore isn’t exactly bursting with a lot of opportunities for aspiring writers to break into the market.
Oh well. I guess no one ever said this will be easy. Still, I’ll keep going. I’ve got it all planned out. I’m going to study English Language in NUS, and then apply for teaching for two years (or maybe not, depending on the economic climate when I graduate) and then move on to work in a magazine company, like Cleo or Seventeen, and I’ll work my way up to editor. In the meantime, I’ll keep doing what I love – creative writing – and sending them for competitions.
I don’t think I’ll go into journalism. As in, newsroom journalism. I can’t stand that kinda writing. Feeding people with the bare facts isn’t writing; it’s reporting. You’d have to follow a certain format and lose whatever style you might call your own, and just tell people what they want to know. That sounds really … boring. I mean, it’s not for me, okay.
4. I don’t really know what I’m living for right now. Like, I’m not being financially-productive, and writing my stories … well, I’m stuck, what the hell can I do other than take a break from it? Watching Supernatural… It doesn’t feel productive, know what I mean? So right now, I am WANDERING, man. I hate being so aimless. At least when I was studying, I had something to work towards.
Wtv. This sucks. Ima go listen to some Dead or Alive (Bon Jovi) right now. (And think of the Winchester boys butchering it – although Dean/Jensen is actually a pretty darn good singer.) Talk to you when I’m less zoned out.
Below: Jensen Ackles (Dean Winchester) and Jared Padalecki (Sam Winchester). I run with Dean, duh. Chiselled cheekbones, maculine jaw, smouldering gaze, deep sexy voice, strong muscled back, badass/tongue-in-cheek attitude (as Dean, that is), but shy and humble in real life. Seriously, it’s no competition. Jensen Ackles is HOTTTT, and such a talented actor. Although Sam/Jared does have a cute smile (see picture on the right).